2 weeks ago i watched Avengers with my friends… We watched the last full show in 3D…. and I slept inside the cinema because I was so tired… 

        So I decide after my early meeting days later, to watch it again with my two friends… :)

        I LOVE THE MOVIE!!!! YES!!!!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!! I LOVE THOR!!! HEHEHEHE!!!! (even if they don’t really focus on his handsomeness in this one! OH I LOVE HIM! I pray that my future lovey will be kind of like him… A MAN!!! :) a very charming MAN! )

But… that’s not the one that really hit my heart… Its the line of HULK… 

                 In our lives we have many struggles… Hatred, lust, envy,conformity, addiction, laziness, idolatry….. and so on… And we try  fight these things with all our might…

                 Some of you might be asking and saying…” Why do we have to fight these things??? HATE? LUST? lalala… these are normal response to some situations… When someone did something bad to you, you hate… when you see pictures like this or that or see a beautiful woman or a handsome man your imagination just goes like that… ITS NORMAL!”

                 Not because these are  the immediate response of our body or our heart, it should be NORMAL… No… We cannot let these stay in us because these destroy us… 

                 THESE ARE SINS… sorry for being like a knife in this one… I really don’t want to hurt you guys and girls.. but this is the truth… and we need the TRUTH… Sin destroys our identity.. destroys our destiny…

                 Sin separates us to our Creator…

                 ”Why can’t we be separated from God? Can He just leave us alone!!!”  Yes He can.. but God decided to never leave us nor forsake us (hebrews 13:5)… Because we are created BY HIM and FOR HIM… :)

                  Believe me… I tried to live for myself, for my dreams, for my craft my music and *ehem! ehem!* (cough! cough!) for some cute guys too… hahaha! I tried living not for God …! nothing satisfied me… So i thought that’s  ”LIFE”… that’s the meaning of living… to always find for something that will satisfy me..

                  That hunger can only be satisfied with ONE… A relationship with your MAKER… :) 

                  So yeah, we try to fight our sins with our whole might… but nothing seems happening… its not working… you just go on circles with that sin… You wake up in the morning so shy to pray to God because of the things that you did… you just go on circles… 

                  When Hulk said this line in the movie “ YOU KNOW WHAT’S MY SECRET? I’M ALWAYS ANGRY…….” BOOM! like a light bulb exploded inside my brain these came to my mind… To fight the enemy you have to HATE him! To fight sin is to HATE SIN! Well hate doesn’t really mean that you have to be in a “fighting face mode” all the time it is a matter of the heart… it is to have a distaste for it… Oha Hate hatred… hate lust!!!

                 But you can’t hate something that you loved for so long just like that…  You will just keep on sinning if you love sinning… unless.. there is something or Someone rather, that you love more now… in short  ”You. can’t. hate .sin. if. you. dont. love. God…” :) the more you love God.. the more you will hate SIN… Yes that is that.. (yun yun… hehehe) We can’t figh sin just by hating it… unless GOD IS HOLDING YOUR HEART… Unless.. God is your delight now…  Loving God is the only way… 

                 You can’t fool the enemy and say…. ” I HATE YOU.. And I’m a hulk in the spirit..” he sees you when you’re alone… He sees your every reaction towards people.. he sees and hear those backstabbing you do… he sees everything.. the enemy is watching you… 

                 Maybe you’re saying right now.. “But i don’t love God.. and i want to..” Well let me tell you this… that’s what i told God 3 years ago… And God delights in a humble heart.. just be honest to God, you can’t hide anything from Him anyway… :) Just tell Him.. ” I WANT TO LOVE YOU GOD! BECAUSE YOU ARE MY CREATOR AND TO YOU I OWE EVERYTHING… MY BREATH, MY BODY… MY EXSISTENCE…”

                 You know what God did to me when i opened my heart to Him? He poured out in me a kind of LOVE for Him so hyper i cannot control it… I can’t control it!!! That’s why i can be angry at the enemy now… i can be genuinely angry with sin… 

                     DO NOT FAKE IT! YOU CANNOT FAKE GOD! Or else you will look like this hulk hehehe! Just kidding… but yeah… :) God loves you so much even if you look like this one hehehehe…. God loves you that he died for you even when you were a sinner (ROMANS 5:8). .. :) Don’t be shy just come to him and be consumed by His LOVE! :) if you failed because of that same sin…. COME TO HIM… REPENT..  You can’t change you… God will change You… Just soak in His Love… :) His Spirit will be in you.. And you will be surprised, wow! i’m not doing those things anymore… :) 

                   To look upon His mercy and grace… Jesus died for you and me so that we can be with Him…  In view of His mercy you will just refuse to sin because of your melted heart for God’s love for you.. YOU CAN’T JUST DO IT ANYMORE… 

                    I don’t really know if all of the things that i have said connects to the whole story of hulk in the movie cuz honestly i didn’t really understand the whole thing because they talk so fast… or maybe my english is just so AWESOME!!!! hahahahahah! but yeah… that line was really striking… “I’m always angry..”